So long story short (like I ever really manage that!) I'm up at 12:30 am on the day of my birth. Well, not the exact day -- it's been a while since that *actual* day. [Editor's note: I've taken heavy meds and I'm still awake, so I plead a
Mamma-lee if this gets bizarre]. Birthday cake is in the oven right now so I really had better not choose this moment to finally fall asleep.

Approaching this birthday wasn't a big deal to me. I'm not really worried about age -- after all, the best cheese and meats are aged, right? Hmmm, I don't think I want to be likened to a stinky cheese or slab of meat. Bad analogy I suppose. Anyway, I thought it was no biggie. Then all of a sudden it started to hit me that maybe I should be slightly traumatized. So now I am. Don't worry, it won't last long. ;)

This has got me thinking, however. 30 years of life on this good ole planet. What have I accomplished? Do I have any regrets? Would I like a "do-over"? Well, let's see what my wandering fingers are thinking....
Expectations by the age 30:THE GOOD*I have a college degree in a field that could be easily applied in case that became necessary. Also, I enjoy learning new things and continually self-educating. I enjoy the degree I got (Elementary Education) and give or take a few psychiatric issues 8-P I could enjoy doing it again someday if the need arose.


*My crafting hobbies are wonderful. I need to get my health and motivation under control so I can keep up with it to turn the corner into actual "business", but that may need to wait another couple of years. Family first.

*I am very happily married for time and all eternity to a wonderful man. We get on each-other's nerves sometimes, we forget things, step on toes (literally and figuratively)... but we have a lot of fun doing it. I am content. Actually happy! I could not imagine a husband better prepared and suited to handling me than the one I have. And guess what? I love him too :")


*I have three beautiful daughters. We never intended to stop at three children, (thinking 4-5 or
maybe even 6), but because of physical conditions beyond our control it simply isn't reasonable to attempt it. We feel very much at peace with this decision. One benefit is that I can buy three special matchy-matchy heirloom type thingies and not worry about any later kids being left out :D So while it wasn't our original plan, it is a plan that works for us. Being a stay at home mom is what I've always wanted to do, and I'm loving the opportunities that arise as a result.
THE "LESS-THAN-WHAT-I-HOPED" (Or for the sake of parallelism: THE BAD)*I really wish we owned a house. This isn't a huge deal, but it is something that I'd always imagined. I wish I could settle down and spend time on making custom curtains, room decorations, bead spreads, coordinating whatsits, etc. Even though we're living in a house and have the space of a "grown up", I still feel frustrated by the transient feel. I know we're going to move at least one more time. I just want to know I can start ruining things on my own! I'd love to freak out about Sharpie on the wall and stains on the carpet for my own self, and not on behalf of some landlord. Someday. I hope.
*I never imagined I'd be living such a sendentary lifestyle. I was so active for so many years, I assumed it would continue to be a part of life: dance, walking, stretching, etc. I claim complete responsibility -- it's my bad choice. Finding the motivation to make this change has been difficult. My body is so far past what it used to be that it is physically uncomfortable to attempt the things I used to do on a Tuesday afternoon without breaking a sweat! I am really disappointed in my physical appearance. Due to metabolic changes, lifestyle changes, and dietary changes (none for the better) I now am heavier that I was when any of my three babies was born. That's really hard for me to swallow (No pun intended, honest). I have to accept responsibility for allowing these changes to occur, and I am capable of turning this around; but it will take conscious and significant change to do so.
*My physical health is just not what I would expect for an active, healthy 30 year old. (That's when I assumed I'd be active, of course) I've had two actual cut-you-open surgeries (one a c-section, the other for gallbladder) and probably about half-dozen non cutting general anesthesia procedures to try to keep my body on track. YES, I know that if I get the above mentioned issue taken care of, this should help. But in any case it's not going to happen over night. I didn't expect to have a pill sorter by this age. I take 10 pills daily. If I skip one for more than a day or two (it has happened to me with each of the pills) it reminds me of why I bother to take them anyway. 6 of the pills are identical, so it's really only 5 different meds. Fortunately none of my medical concerns have been severe chronic conditions. Chronic, sure, but severe? not so much. Not until I start to think of them all at once. Then I probably have an anxiety attack and add another pill in for the day.

So, basically -- Am I 30, flirty, and thriving?
Well, I am now 30. Flirty? Maybe with my husband sometimes ;). Thriving? I'll go with a definite yes. Besides how I've disregarded my physical condition I have no regrets. I would not have wished to travel the world while single. (I'd rather do that with my best friend. Awwwww.) I wouldn't wish to spend more time in the dating scene >shudder<. I wouldn't wish for any major changes in my life. I am indeed, content.
I suppose there really is nothing to worry about. I am 30. And That's That.

***Note -- I just pullled the cake out of the oven and managed to walk into three walls. I think it's time for bed :) I may add more pictures tomorrow -- cause you know me and pictures :P***